oh HAAAAY no one, because i haven’t written anything here in months. not that i had many followers anyways, but you know.
i’m still obese, etc but after 6 weeks of putting off joining the new gym in town, i have taken one step closer beyond exploring their website a billion times, and have made an appt to meet one of their trainers. so tomorrow night i will sign up, spend ALL THE MONEY IN THE WORLD, get a trainer, and set this bitch in gear. (“this bitch” refers to my plan of becoming a healthy human being)
a few years ago i had a trainer at a gym and i lost ~25lbs. that is the most i have ever lost in life and besides that time have only gained weight since birth basically. it really, really, really needs to stop though.
i feel pretty good about getting back into the gym routine except that the trainer is a guy. and for whatever bitchass female reason, this intimidates the hell out of me. BUT i will push through the awkwardness of having him see me struggle to walk for 10 mins and see my boobs/vagina sweat, and just move on with my life because this kind of dumb shit CAN’T STOP ME. i have HAVE HAAAAAAVE to get my shit together. for. real.
i really hope i can pull myself together and make the necessary changes this time. i’m so tired of being tired walking up stairs and of struggling to slide into restaurant booths. FUCK THAT. no more. no moooooore.