February 2012
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oh HAAAAY no one, because i haven’t written anything here in months. not that i had many followers anyways, but you know.
i’m still obese, etc but after 6 weeks of putting off joining the new gym in town, i have taken one step closer beyond exploring their website a billion times, and have made an appt to meet one of their trainers. so tomorrow night i will sign up, spend ALL THE...
May 2011
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OH HEY BLOG!! it’s been what, another month since i posted anything? not much has changed except that i’ve been dog sitting for the past two weeks and they require at least a 20 minute walk everyday. and so i’ve actually been doing it! *applause* at the beginning i could walk for about 7 mins without my lower back being in horrible pain and now i’m up to 15. progress, yes....
April 2011
2 posts
the girl who cries in her car
i had a pretty radical mental breakdown yesterday. the agency i’ve been volunteering with for last couple months hired 3 new people and it made me feel like absolute shit. i have worked my ass off for them and make it clear that i’m still looking for a job, plus they have my resume on file. so i was really hurt that they didn’t even mention it to me. i don’t know the...
Kasia from america’s next top model cycle 16 is like, my DREAM. she’s freakin flawless.
ps don’t judge my shitty tv show choices.
March 2011
4 posts
MFP finally came out with a blackberry app. YESSSS. AND i actually used it today!!! i was over my calorie goal but frankly at this point i’m only looking to achieve small goals. i gotta get my head in the right place. day by day. sigh.
i have pinpointed the main things deterring my success in weight loss so now i must figure out ways to combat them.
i’m horribly embarrassed working out. i’ve mentioned before that i was using my friend’s condo building gym because i’m unemployed and need somewhere free to go. but it’s not enough. they only have a treadmill, elliptical, and one weight machine so...
i can’t even believe how long it’s been since i even logged into this tumblr account. i completely 100% abandoned it. i’ve been in a major life rut and as such did not feel like having anything to do with getting healthy. i have been so epically bad for the past month that i don’t even want to think about it. shit food, not working out, sleeping in…… i’ve...
February 2011
8 posts
snowmania
early this morning (far before my awakening), the plows came to clear our roads. who parks on the street? oh yes, that would be me. so a mountain of snow was added to the mountain of snow already on and around my car… it took me exactly 31 minutes to shovel my car out of its snowy grave today. 31 fucking minutes. and i’m not gonna lie. i was EXHAUSTED after that. no wonder old people...
snowed in
WELL my car got buried in snow. literally, buried. i park on the street and with the fallen snow plus the snow produced by the plows, i was stuck. but on the bright side, i busted out my skipping rope and my wii, and did some at home workouts today. it was a really random assortment of fitness activities. can i just say skipping is really effing hard?!?! when i was in grade 4 i was in the skipping...
the climb
i saw “127 days” this weekend and then tonight watched a 2 hr dateline special on aron ralston. what a crazy ass story! holy shitballs. the movie was pretty damn gross but also unbelievably inspiring. i thought the movie would be pretty boring because i mean, he’s stuck in a crevice for 6 days - how much can happen?! but i wasn’t bored. it was thrilling!
despite the...
i need a gym closer to home. which means i have to pay monthly. which means i need a job. which i cannot get.
FML!
the good, the bad, and the frustrating
i am pretty disappointed in my blogging productivity. i’ve also stopped using my fitness pal. fail aaaaall around. how can i want something so bad but constantly stop myself from doing it? it’s so frustrating.
i really want working out to be less painful. mentally, i’m there. it’s awesome. but physically… i. want. to. die. my back hurts, my legs hurt, my arms hurt,...
mystery woman
for the past few weeks i’ve been going to the gym in my friend’s condo building. i have her code to get in the building’s door and then i just cruise into the gym, unnoticed. every time i’m there (which is not often. trust me) this old lady comes in and stands on the vibration machine for 10 minutes. now even stranger than someone actually using a vibration machine, is that...
January 2011
21 posts
cranky pants
ugh i am debbie downer today. i basically hate everything and everyone. everywhere.
i’m even too cranky to read my current david sedaris book. so clearly, i am not well in the head. FML.
plus, i had a scoop of ice cream. DEATH TO TODAY.
wah.
30 Healthiest Foods
nyminute:
According to Real Simple Magazine, the following are 30 super-foods to incorporate into your diet.
almonds
avocados
barley
black beans
blueberries
broccoli
bulgur
chard
chicken breasts
edamame
eggs
extra virgin olive oil
kale
kidney beans
kiwi
lentils
mushrooms
oatmeal
oranges
peanut and almond butters
pumpkin (good news, tumblr!)
quinoa
sardines
skim milk
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"i used to be fat"
has anyone been watching “i used to be fat” on mtv? i think i’m all caught up on the episodes thanks to mtv’s website….. and i don’t know what i think about it. i like seeing bigger people on tv - especially on a youth centered channel - but that’s about the only thing i like. so i should rephrase my previous statement. i know what i think of it:...
tennis
i grew up watching two sports on tv: hockey and golf. i know, who the hell watches golf?!! but every sunday instead of football, my dad would watch golf and sometimes i would too. i find it oddly calming… but now my sport of choice to watch is tennis. the australian open has been on the last week or so and it has been glorious!! and the more i watch it, the more i want to shed this weight so...
pssst... pass it on!
after my terrible wedding dress shopping experience this week, i chatted with amanda from shrink-wrap briefly about the importance of self esteem. she wrote an amazing post about it that you should read, by the way. the subject has been on my mind lately and i thought i would write a bit about it because i think loving oneself is soooo important. having a sense of self worth and self esteem...
BLOGGING FAILURE!! i have apparently completely abandoned this tumblr. shame. on me. i HAVE however been keeping up with my calorie tracking. which is an impressive feat all on its own. my biggest failure however is that i have still yet to step on the scale. i just… can’t. i mean, i can. i should. but i am so terrified i have been underestimating my weight. i don’t want a...
well this weekend was…. interesting. i’m really proud of how i did food-wise. i really slacked working out, however i went to a club friday night and danced my face off. but besides that, i did dick all in the fitness dept. a few notes i would like to make:
i drank 2200 calories worth of vodka this weekend…… i have never looked at calories from alcohol so this is somewhat...
Success!!
I went out for lunch earlier today and not only did I order smartly, but I only ate half AND I drank water. I usually drink 2 or more glasses of ice tea. So I’m really proud of myself. It helped that my 2 friends I was with are doing a cleanse right now and as a result could only eat soup and salad so I wasn’t tempted by their orders…. But I’m still proud of myself.
i don’t really know how i’ve been staying on track. i have struggled with my terrible eating habits for my entire life and for whatever reason(s) i’m doing really well this time. i may sound like a junkie but i have cravings constantly. only i’m not giving in. it’s hard and sometimes i dream of french fries or fall asleep thinking about sun chips…. but i’m...
ho hum. still trucking. had mad cravings last night but POWERED THROUGH LIKE A MOFO MACHINE. i’m also back to normal human sleep times. thank god. that shit was annoying.
i wish i had exciting/uplifting/motivational things to share but i’m up to my eyes in job applications and cover letters and building a bookshelf. so i guess i will leave you with this, which i found on stumblupon...
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i wish jillian michaels lived next door so she could beat my ass into shape. actually… she would be a terrifying neighbour. good day today. i feel pleased. but i’m going to have to lower my calorie goal down from 1500. i’m just not reaching it with the healthy foods. i’d be barfing lettuce if i got to 1500. and no one wants to do that…
i watched the bachelor tonight...
“Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but...”
– Lance Armstrong (via whenmysexyisright)
slumber queen
yesterday was a weird day! i hadn’t slept at all the night before so i was sleeping on and off pretty much all day. this sleep rut i’m in right now needs to end asap! it didn’t help that my car was snowed in all weekend so i couldn’t go anywhere, thus making things pretty boring and lifeless around here. BUT it’s is a new day, i’m awake at a normal person time,...
thank god for snow
i wanted crap food BAD today. honestly, if there hadn’t been an epic blizzard outside, i just might have broken down and gone to get fast food. it’s really disturbing how attached i am to shitty food. i have to break through this craving period and it’s going to suck. big time. BUT it needs to be done.
i bought a scale today and have yet to step on it. i am fairly terrified...
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so… is it completely wrong of me to be following this tumblr from my other tumblr account?
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i keep posting after midnight so my days are getting screwed up! this update is technically for jan 7…. today was a weird day. well, weird to most people, but it’s not a rare occurrence in my world. some days i don’t fall asleep until 5 or 6am and then i sleep until 3pm. trust me - i am fully aware of how insane and unhealthy this is. i blame it on a number of things ranging from...
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i know i’m doing lots of posts today, but whatever. i just perused the health & fitness directory and i’m super disappointed in how many of them are from girls who do not need to lose weight. i think it’s fantastic if people want to get healthy and increase muscle mass, but wow. a few of them are pretty crazy to me!!
i don’t know if anyone is going to ever read this...
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The Beginning
I have been fat since 2nd grade. The difference between my 1st grade school photo and my 2nd grade photo are pretty significant. I can’t say how much weight I gained between those years, but since then I have been overweight. My first memory of knowing I was fat was in grade 5 when the whole grade was getting ready to go on a ski trip. Everyone who was renting skis had to get their height and...
